will you notice me?

Will You Notice Me?

I was standing beside you,

waiting for you to make a move

wondering will you look at me

and talk to me

before i start talking.

I saw you from a distance

talking with my best friend

i know i shouldn't mind

as she know nothing about us,

she's innocent.

my heart ache when she mention your name

as if she's your girlfriend

i wanna shout and say we are together

but shut up when i remember our promise.

my heart ache

when i found myself walking behind both of you

it just doesn't make sense

my heart hurts

when i found both of you talking and laugh

i'm suffering,

when she keep mentioning about you

i'm suffering

to see you take the first move to talk to her

i'm suffering

when both of you looks like couple more than we do

i'm hating myself

dragging myself into this relationship

i hate myself

to look at my own reflection and found i'm not me anymore

why can't you make a move?

why can't you be the same person when i sms with you?

why can't you just talk to me like normal friends?

why can't you treat me like how you treat the others?

i wonder if you are sincere?

i wonder whether you are just daring with me?

i wonder will i be able to accept the fact

if you left me somehow.

i wanted to quit

but it's too late

my feelings had grow

from like to love

i let the age gap away

i don't mind about your age

i don't mind that you often call yourself bored

i don't mind you not liking me at all.

you make me remember the old me

remember of my first wonderfull relationship

how a relationship works through phone

with sweet messages and lovely image of you

but,

you make me remember

the ugly relationship i had

with a guy who often hurt me

how cold is he treating me in public

and dump me after he got bored.

i wanted a real relationship

but afraid of getting hurt

you kept telling me to trust you

but

you started to make a barrier

i miss you alot

but, will you miss me?

i love your shadows

but will you love mine?

i try to fulfill my promise

although i had to suffer for that

i do really try

but, are you with me?

i wonders whether are you avoiding my messages now

i wonder are you trying to make me hate you

i wonder you are just fooling around

i wonder can we survive

if you hate me

tell me

if you dislike me

tell me

if you are fooling around with me

tell me

i don't want to be like a fool

i want to stop this mess

i want a real relationship

i don't want to suffer

i just want to be normal.

am i in you?

did you really into me?

i wonders

will you notice me?