HIM

Who could ever imagine such a thing will happened to me?


Finally, i met him in person. Nobody can describe my feeling. I really didn't expect him to show up at my working place. After so long, i finally can see him face to face. But, i can't meet up with him as his lover.


I didn't expect him to appear at hiestand. He called me and started asking bout my work. After that he ended up telling me he might come to bangsar village to accompany his friend. I thought he might just joke with me or maybe he really came but won't be stopping by. But, frankly, i was shaking. My chest feel loaded with pressure and my hands are shaking. I can't concentrate while working. Hell!


I kept searching for excuses to go out from the bakery. First, i say i wanna go toilet. then, i followed Lina (my colleague) to the store and later again, tag with her to change money. I keep looking around for him and i was super stupid for not asking what he wear. After that, i received message from him. He told me that he saw me twice and i didn't saw him. I was stunned when he told me i actually just pass by him by his face. I start to blame myself for my unnecessary stupid-ness. I went back to work and when there are no customer, i jump out to have a look around. Still i can't spot him at all. I gave up hope and start working. Suddenly, i saw him in the shop. I quickly make a lame excuse saying i'm going to toilet and rushed out to meet him.


The feeling was excited until, my hands are shaking. I gotta keep it in my pocket to prevent any embarrassment. His friend left us alone and we start talking and walking. Honestly, my heart ache. His look are dull. Both of his eyes are red. He told me he didn't sleep for the whole night. Again, i blame myself. Why must i be a pig to not realise his weirdness when he message me yesterday night? Yet, i can't go back to the time. I help it close to myself. He looked lifeless and i keep blaming myself for all these. But, decision had made. I can't see myself walking back. I need time to sort things out. 1 year is a minimum time i gave myself cause i felt, it's not enough for me.


Slowly, we walked back to the place. Linda(the supervisor a.k.a my neighbour) suggest i treat them with something. I thought of latte, the drink that i just graduate. Made two for them and due to my over-excited mood, i can't make a perfect one. Hand it to them and he want to pay. I rejected and he suggest that i choose some bread for myself and he pay for me. Again i rejected. I don't want to add burden to him. Besides, the worker there can eat/taste the bread there for free. So why bother to buy it with money?


Before i went back, he keep asking me to take pictures with him. I wanted to say yes but i stop myself. I don't want to take picture with him. I want him to come again to take a better picture. I don't know why but, i felt i can see him more if i keep dragging the picture taking 'ceremony'. Finally, i gave in. Took two pictures with him and eventually got addicted to it. I kept looking at those pictures and i just cant look away. The vision of him keep circling in my head. I want him there badly but i just can't.


i wish i can meet up with him again. begging god for that~

~ memories that aren't meant to be forgotten ~

Back!

Sorry ya, for keeping the blog damn dead..Not my fault! Don't blame me! Blame my laziness...XD


Okay~lets see...i found a job at Bangsar Village as a part-timer. Planning to work till i start my college~ going SEGI SUBANG for ADP. Might be going for march intake.


Went for the amali today. Dead boring.


Promise i will talk more in the next post. Running out of time..SORRY!!!

My Luck

Quick! Congrates me!! Why? I managed to pass the exam with only 5 wrongs. A good result for a last-minute person like me. Woke up super early in the morning. My alarm rang at 6 a.m but i continue sleeping until my mom suddenly called me up. Overslept for half an hour. Rushed to clean myself and make a last minute preparation to check that i brought everything that i need there. Uncle Lim arrived at my house with three other people behind me. Sat there and while fetching us to Bangi, he gave us a pop quiz and it freak me out cause i can't think of the answer. Quickly, i grab my book out and start reading it. Wow. Honestly, i never study that much for SPM. Weird huh?

Waited there for more than two hours. Take a place and and managed to get in the hall earlier. Got to computer no.6 and start answering. I was freaking nervous at the first time and my hands are shaking. I just worried that i can't pass that exam and gotta pay another RM50. Redo and check several times to ensure no silly mistakes like, left turn and right turn, u-turn and so on. After bout 20 minutes, i finished the whole thing and try to check for my results. Super dumb computer was so lag that i got to wait for so long for the results to be printed on the screen. I saw it and i was hunting for the word, LULUS. Found it and super happy+dissapointed cause i saw 42/50 on the screen. I thought i just pass on the border line. *sigh~

Went out and hand the lady over my IC. She printed the paper for me and this time, i read it clearly. I was so suprise that i don't get 42 for it. I got 45 for it!! I wanted to shout but take it back. I don't want to be in the centre of attention. Not now. Went to take a picture and i surely looked ugly..TT there, i met the three person who sat the same car as me. I remember the guy's name. Tai Jia Yi. Tai Xing Yi's cousin. Talk alot and found out they are super rich. [==]

Went back awhile then go out for my first meal of the day. Lunch. Then, went shopping. Suddenly, my right eyes got super red. Quickly took my contack out and wore my specs. Became a nerd for a day. HAHA~ bought a suit of clothes and seriously, i don't have the mood to shop.I've been walking sround and i guess i know the reason why. Lack of sleep. Fall asleep several times in the car and keep yawning..sad right?

Great news. Got a work at a bakery shop. Don't ask me where. I tottally forget the place name. Having bad memory recently and that gonna freak me out. Got a quite good pay for it..haha... Things had started to go well. My next target is my college. No time for relationship this time. I don't think i'm ready for it yet. Anyway, time for me to grow up! So what if i'm single? I can fend myself up! Just want to grow up now.

Time to go~ Update soon~



Signed;
elaine

STAR Edu Fair

gor hand kacau oni

Participate in the STAR edu fair at KLCC today... Lucky gor was free to fetch me there. (*thanks gor!*) Later on, stupid Kritz joined us and cause me waiting for him for 10 minutes...grrr~~

Woke up early in the morning (10 a.m) and start dragging my time till 10.30 a.m. have a bath, breakfast and get ready for my bro to come and fetch me. I ended up late cause he came early to fetch me. Running down and saw his car there. Enter it and gave him a smile that he missed for so long..^^

Later on, gor fetch me to shabu-shabu for lunch. Thanks bro for the treat! Eat till damn full~^^~ later on, straight go KLCC. At first he scared me cause he don't know the way to KLCC. Lucky got a GPS in his car. PHEW! went there and saw super big hall with so so so so many booths there. Bet i'll be busy with those stuff there already.haha

Went for Segi booth first. I got to get my mind clear off with the questions that bug me. Lucky to a guy there named, Jeff, i got my mind sort out already. Accompained by my bro, we went everywhere there until Kritz messaged me and made me waited for him for 10 minutes long. UNBELIVABLE!!!! GRRR~

Start walking from the 1st hall. Been asking around. Bro ask for design while Kritz asked for aviation course. me? i was looking for mass comm~then, i got hyper again and you cant blame me for that. Imagine two cruel person bully the innocent and weak me (*wakaka*). After walking for so long, we decide to walk at the garden there and i got into my mood. CAMWHORE!!!

gor and me

gor, me and kritz

kritz and me

piggy

went back home early to prevent my mom from freaked out. She heard a news from my dad bout church being boomed. At the end, i found out gor got more booklet den me..haha...

decided to go segi subang for ADP. might be taking double major on communication and management...weee~~~ =D

Hurted

Tears rolled down with the heart broken feeling. The pain on the chest was unberable. Yet, it was because of a wrong decision made earlier. Holding up the guts and fear, another strong decision was made. A hard and strong hurtful idea was voiced out. Leaving the loves one and going through the solo world again is a must now. No matter how much the heart pleaded, how much the eye shed its tears, and how much the heart ache, the determination for that decision had already made with no returns. Somehow, a positive point of view came to gave support. Freedom was returned and burden was lifted away. But, the mind was still somewhere out there. Time is needed to get over everything in the mind. Learning to be serious and matured in the relationship is a a must now. Hurting ownself or the other party is a sin for a pair of lovers. Holding up and learn how to appreciate and understand each other is the only way to allow long-lasting relationship. Time and experience are needed for it. Somehow, love is hurtful.



Signed;
elaine

L O V E

=>The four letters word seem to be easy to be said and done nowadays. All you gotta do was to stare with passion with the one you love and say it as if you meant it from your heart. It happens almost everyday on every couple but, does anyone of you wonder why it's hard to last it forever? It's actually a simple concept but, not everyone can actually see the whole thing until it's too late.

=>LOVE was easy to spell. But, i might got a different view of the simple L O V E letters that combined into a word. As all of us know, LOVE is spelt with the letter L first followed by O and V before they end with E. For me, to actually spell LOVE, we gotta begin with L and before reaching E, one got to go through O and V. Wondering what am i crapping bout? For me, each letters got different meaning.

=>Start with L. L stands for luck and like. To meet your loves one, everybody needs luck. If he or she was the perfect one, it's definitely luck was on your side. Meeting that somebody will drag the like-feeling and eventually will came in command. The last letter, E, stands for eternity and ending. But before reaching E, there are letters O and V between L and E.

=>O stands for original and opposite. When two people got together, they eventually realise the more inner and true self of each other. Opposite opinions from two different side eventually will cause miscommunication and danger for a relationship.Overcoming these two problems are a must to ensure long-lasting relationship.

=>The words V represents variety and vow. As time passes by, the pair will meet many other kinds of people and will eventually start comparing. This will happen when the chemistry between two people are not strong enough. Vow is a must for them to make in order to lead a happy relationship with loyalty. Passing through all this, they will face E, eternity till the end.

=>Love still a huge question whether the bond may ever last long or not. A great fall may hurt a person and eventually lost hope towards love. It will be hurtful thus great hope and care should be showered to a person. Love can be sweet and yet bitter as well. It will never be better if only a side worked hard for it. Character and mindset are the most important point to be cared of to deal with a relationship. Forcing yourself on a relationship that won't worked out even though you loved him or her is a burden that need to carry and ended up into suffering.

=>Ending of this bored article, i just want to conclude something. Love was never fair. Think properly before starting a relationship or else the one who love will ended up hurt. With only one side working and thinking bout the relationship will never work. Take time to think bout each other and showered them with care. Love is easy but complicated for many~




Signed;
elaine

Stilll Waiting

oh my~



been waiting for two phone call since yesterday...one is bout the job interview and another is about the undang...wait wait wait...wonder what will it turned out~








things that happened around me don't really worked any better..i thought of 2010 might be better but, i don't think it will go anywhere. bout my freedom? i don't think it's gonna get any better...what can i say? my parents thought of everything for me but, do they know what i really want? i know i shouldn't be talking this craps here but, i need the space to voice out...








anyway, forget about the so-called sad stuff...not to care and don't wanna care as well...just wanna keep my blog alife...anyway, really nothing to update...life have been dull eversince i graduate...

A whole new look

To celebrate 2010, here i am, with my whole new blog look!!!
comment ya!!!xD

Another Day

ANOTHER DAY

here i goes..another dull day..



i seriously miss school days, the time when i got to meet back all my dear friends, complained bout the homework and bla bla bla...gosh...damn miss school...


one more fact that i don't wanna admit is i'm turning 18!!!! waaaaa~~~





anyway, went for job interview and it was kindda weird...now, me and chell just gotta wait for just 1 phone call to get it..phew...wish me luck!!!





I wish to start college soon (as a replacement for school) and wanna get busy...slacking around at home really torturing and sad...TT








i guess that's for all now..








signing off~laine

1st 2010 post

1ST 2010 POST!!!!




HALOOOOO 2010!!!! (*fly the flags buddy!!!*)
well, this is my very 1st post for 2010!!! i cant really update much cause i'm at penang and can't really type much here...sorry!!!



just a post to say, ITS 2010!!!!