Family..Family..Family

well..somebody said that he doesn't understand what my blog talking about because i use low-class english..so, i had determine to use middle-class english instead..

well, i grew to dislikes home already..it's not like how i often feel...the anxiety to go home and spend my time with my families..now,if can i rather to stay outside and only come back to eat, study and sleep.if can, i rather study outside with my friends instead.there even time that i wanted to go for sleepover night at michelle's house.

almost everyday my mom yelled at us and started throwing things around.i know that she undergo stress and pressure due to the the children she taking care of...but, why must she released on us?

yesterday, i came out late...i think it's the time problem that cause the misunderstanding...i'm always early when my mom came to fetch me..just that i was late for about ten minutes, she drive away, planning not to fetch me home...feeling mad, i get chee yong's phone and called her...we argued through the phone and she close my phone...my dad called and i tell my dad the reaso i'm late...lucky i'm at home, facing her for bout 2-3 hours only...i rather rush for my tuition then facing her...

for me, what happpens in the house just have to keep it for ourselves...i don't think it's something proud of to tell people around you about it...this might be my first time writting about my family problems here because i can't stand it anymore...is it proud enough to have outsiders to scold and teach you daughters as well?

people say that as people grow older, their relationship with their families will grow apart..i keep protesting it but now, i have to accept it..it's true that we will have gap between us as our mindset are different...

well, i don't feel like talking much about my family cause it's not something proud to tell...

btw, he got kick from the ketua post already...hurray!!

Goodbye~T.T

never i expect to go blogging 2day...but, i jus happen to hav sth i want to announced here...
~i quit blue house marching~
honestly, tis isnt wat i expected...it happens tat kiat shi suggest tis whole idea of quiting perbarisan coz v r tired of cleaning up ppl's ass...he cut out ppl without discussing wif us and take over stuff wen he's free...me and kiat shi worked hard for the whole team but he jus hav to go down and train dem when he's free...and the free time i mean is on the day he dun hav to paint the class which happens oni on mon and fri...although he's the ketua, pls take care of the others feeling...i hate it when he often warn me not to play wif the others...hell he goes...wats the prob of play wif them to make them relax and not being so tension...i dunno wat he think but, does he noe the whole meaning of having marching for sports day?
for me, marching is act a plan to train students to work 2gether and mixed well wif others...its not the matter of win and loose...it doesnt matter actually...
but, for him, i guess its diff...very diff...but, dun ask me wat...coz i dunno and i dun1 to noe bout it...
i cried alot 2day...Dang..i shud stop myself from crying d...once i heard tat v still lack of ppl, i was so so so so shocked...i worked hard to pull ppl in and talk to them but, y v still hav no enuf ppl??i looked at the list and saw many name being cancelled...when i ask kiat shi, she said it's him who cut it...darn it!!!my list is for me and kiat shi to do reference...not for him to scribble around!!my tears rolled down and i just cant control it...i feel awkward to cry in front of kiat shi and wai seng so i quickly walked awy...lucky, i met choy yi and i hug him to release my feeling...lucky she's ther...
i heard tat he's gonna paint so i calm myself down and feel better edi...but, when v train till half-way, he's here and...congrats...he started to spoil everything!!y must he do tat?i ignored him when he asked me whether wanna join him at kfc...he say je's gonna blanja...so wat?i cant afford to eat it isit?Fucked off la...
when v r training belok, he lean on me and asked me wat's wrong...i pull myself away in a very obvious action saying "back off u fucker!".iden, i tell him tat v r not tat close and walked away to the canteen...kiat shi den went tot the canteen and talk wif me...v den eat and kiat shi asked for my opinion wat if she quits...for sure i say i will follow her....she quickly get her paper and cancelled our name in the list without telling him...chee yong too say he'll quit if i quit...lol...when kiat shi go away, i cried in front of chee yong while telling him everything i feel...
well, it ends up v just train bout half an hour...he tried to complain in front of mei yee, but fail of coz...xD
v go back and i jus cant bliv tat the news bout me and kiat shi quit spread out so fast...zheng teng sms and call me to call me not to quit...but, i hav to dissapoint him...wai seng sms me tat eu gene, him and zheng teng will stay ther and work hard to piss him off...feel bad, but dey say dey will support me de wor...thank god tat he gave me a bunch of gud fren tat will actually support me when v jus noe each other for bout 1 month plus oni...love dem so much even though dey dun love me...haha...too perasan liao...xD
hmm...i got a lil plan after exam...it will remain secret 1st....haha...tats alll la...xD

~BacK oFf u FuckEr~
*sorry for those rude words in tis post...i really cant stand it anymore...

Starry Starry Night

Finally...its the prom night-mtm antara lembaga!!it was held at sri petaling hotel and everybody was told to b ther by 5.30, which happens tat most of them arrived on 6 p.m

well, i started to get bc when michelle told me to b at her hse bout 11 sth..i walked around the shoplots in my housing areas to help her to get sum materials tat she nid for the theme board...haha...l8t,i help her wit the board and 2gether v went to the hotel to ready the board...
tis is the 1st time i wear a dress bsides from my skol uniform...its feel so diff and weird...i guess i look ugly and weird wif dress...xD
well, v get ready n bout 4++, v went to Carmen's hse...at 1st, maine wanted to put make-up on me, but hold back wen my eyes turn red...i really not suitable to put on make-up eh?*lol

well, its ended up tat carmen's sis fetch us ther...wen v reach, many ppl were ther,and i get sum funny eyesight from my frens,especially from bryan...sth unhappy happens and thanks to tat bitch...ivy broke her high heels and michelle cried,,,ther r more but, i dun think it's gud for mr to write it out here coz it suppose not to b my business..so, i make a decision to jus enjoy myself throughout the night.

~The opening Caremony~

every1 ther looks so so so much diff from their usual self...all looks beautiful and charming...haha...alex hav her hair set by her bro's gf and she looks so...mature+beautiful...for 'plastic' she looks lik a lil girl attending wedding caremony...lolZ...me?well, its like a rough gal suddenly wear dress...weird rite?=.=

~Its my Maine performing!!!~

~Here cum Bryan!!~

hmm...maine perform and all of us cheer for her...bryan too perform....yew onn n his band brings the night up high and more...~

~Mustang Crew!!~

mustang crew r ther to perform too!!!oh my!!!love dem sosososososo much...~

annabella and cing lead the dance for the night and ong and tamiko dance elegantly...tamiko is in the centre of the spotlight...

v dance and dance and dance...me and my dear partner, suk yenn keep dancing and v keep switching partner...oni me n kenny dance according to the steps..lol

there r 25 lucky draws and...i din even get one...sob....the prom king n queen obviously is not me...T.T during the lucky draw, kok kheng keep yelling for his name but,too bad he din get it..haha...

~Well, tis is Kok Kheng shouting for his name~xD

hmm...kit yee won the bestdress award and wen its gonna end, v dance for the last time and v dance hard...v dance all v could jus to enjoy the night n gave ourself a memory to remember..

~PIX~

~Say Cheese!!~

~M3 N The Juniors~

~My Lovely Juniors~

~Raymond+Ying Nan+Eric+Bill+M3~

~M3 N Chun Yew~

*My Dad Say lik Husband N Wife...CHOI!!!*

~Chun Yew+Me+Leng Zai Junior~

~Me+Carmen+Michelle~

~Bill+Me+Ying Nan~

~Kit Yee+Kit Mun+Me+Kah Yee~

~Me+Chermaine+Bryan~

~Kok Kheng+me+Michelle~


~Me wif the Guys~

~Me and Suk Yenn In the Toilet~

~Eric+Me+Francis+Ji Tsong~

~pity Francis~

~Lol...~

~The 4~


~Michelle+Me+Connie~

~Yeah~


~Me+Ronnie+Ji Tsong~

~Me+Kit Mun~

~Shuh Jing(the Mc n My WIFE!!)+m3~

~Shek Chen+m3~

*looks lik sis n bro*

Group Pix..

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~Arul+M3+Suk Yenn(my partner for the day)+Ee Leng+Carmen+Alex~

~Raymond+M3~

*my mom say looks lik couple...lolz...X.X*

~Suresh+Mun Jack+M3~

I will surely rmb tis nite for my whole life!!

~0NIAT0~

Lonely Valentine's Day

tis year, i'm celebrating valentine's day alone...ntg special la...lik a ordinary day....jus tat i'm sufferring coz got kursus kepimpinan...LOL...
play n spend half of the day at skol...reach home damn tired edi...rest awhile den go out wif family...haha...go eat western food but end up wait for 2hour to eat..lol...but, there's a cute lil guy playing around wif me...a lil boy ok??dun get me wrong...haha...but, v enjoy ourself...haha...

Marching!!

hmm...finally i'm back to blogging...feel lik there are tonnes of stuff to write but dunno where to start 1st...
well, i guess i shud start with marching den...~ sumbody is smiling now...i noe it!!

hmm...anyway, since it's my last year at SMK SRI SENTOSA, i wish tat i got a very memorable memory...the 1st thing i wanna left an impact in my life is blue house marching crew...well, there are ppl who i really love them there...they are...my 5 dear crew...they r...~

1. Chee Wai Seng(which happens to b our commander right now)
2. Khor Zheng Teng(well known 'na pek')
3. Neoh Yu Xiang(Cute lil guy)
4. Chong Eu Gene(alwiz call me pig!!*grr)
5. Wan Chee Yong(cant stop calling me husky commander thru sms)

hehe...they r my oni hope 4 marching tis year coz i train dem wit all my might...i noe there r sum too tat happens to b my hope but, nobody will noe how hard am i trying to cover them up from 'TAT GUY"

well, i enjoy my time being with dem and too feel sad coz dey sacrifice alot at the same time...dey r willing to support me and tat makes me feel no regret supporting and sacrifice for them too...i even made myself swear tat i will gonna hav pic with dem and post it here...hahaha...

v r having problems with the marching stuff...ther r so much to handle...my hp credit getting decreases by days...OMG!!!i even decidde to get myself a 017 card to contact dem and hav to support it myself...dang!!

i jus cant understand y v cant work 2gether...i noe I'm just a penolong for it...mayb i do too much edi...for times, i felt like giving up the whole thing and b lik hon liong...i'm just trying to help but nobody would understand...i had sacrifice my voice and now, i cant make announcement already coz i cant shout out loud anymore...2day, i got the blame from blk e students, claiming tat i din make the announcement...almost everyday i got to hurt my throat for students to hear the announcement...i hav sleepless night thinking bout the perbarisan thing...i dn mind sacrificing so much as all i want is a memory...a memory where i can remember for my whole life...i noe v cant win but, i dun1 to loose terriblely...i pray to god but i noe i'm oni cheating myself...anyhow, i rather cheat myself den accepting the fact tat v r so worse till nid other team crew to train us...its so damn embarassing thinking bout tat...y he wan to do lik tis??cant he just coorperate?

wen i think of not gonna stay next week, i feel guilty....but wat can i do?even him oso dun1 care edi...i dun mind spending my time training dem and act like a clown to entertain them...but, y cant he do sth???haiz...i dun hav the energy to fight wif him...i jus wanna peace for the marching crew...

~DUN GIV UP!!! ONIATO!!!~