All The Best

ALL THE BEST!!!

To all UPSR, PMR and SPM candidates~

All The Best For Your Trial and The Upcoming Big Test!!!!

GAMBATE!!!!!

We suffer now and enjoy later ya folks!!!!!

WOOHOOO!!!

Outing With Gor

Before i start...

i want to tell something...

Gor~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

went to mines with gor...

he brought me to his hse...near mines...

wow...

super high-class...i got speechless...

treat my gor with pizza...

den walk around the mines...

we keep talking and finally,

when v got bored, we walked put around his hse compound...

and, we got into the camwhore mood and start taking pictures...

i got so much pictures that i ended up lazy to upload..

i will find a time to upload part 2

haha

gor treat me with ice-cream...nyum...

Editng Pictures

Editing Pictures

got into the mood of editing pictures

this time, i got to took more emo picture

haha

the before and after pictures~

the edited picture

L.I.V.E YOUR OWN W.A.Y

L.I.V.E YOUR OWN WAY



can't sleep yesterday...

ended up thinking bout my blog title...

L.I.V.E YOUR OWN W.A.Y

that's what i always wanted to do...

i don't like people controlling my life and arrange it for me...



well...i got what i want L.I.V.E and W.A.Y to symbolised....



L-Live

I-In

V-Various

E-Environment



or



L-Look

I-Inside

V-Various

E-Elaine





W-Walk

A-Alone

Y-Yesterday



or



W-Wander

A-Away

Y-Your Own





let me know which 1 sounds better...

or

give me some new idea....



TQ!!

HairCut

HairCut

went for a haircut today...

BEFORE~

AFTER~~

i know it's not much different...

just my hair more neat

and shorter

i got to cut again at the end of the year...

cause it's not that okay yet...

my mom woke me up early in the morning...

i got so blur and she asked me to take over my 'daughter' from her mother...

then i ended up take care of her till she fall asleep...

finally i got to remember her name...

is hui ying...haha(*i think i spell correctly)

had an arguement with my mom yesterday...

she still can't believe me in making friends...

she got her own opinion towards the friends i made..

the only few that gave her good impression are...

chelle, maine and ken...

the other ein no tomo gang, she only know chelle and maine...

besides that, the others she don't really like...

she often call them as lala...

but, i don't think she know wat's lala really is...

i pity alex(*guy)...

cause my mom really don't like him...

sigh~

my friends turned out to be so-called lalas...

look like i'm going to be one den mom...

T.T

what really happen was...

my mom keep saying i give my friend bluff already...

when i showed her the message to proof that she's not,

my mom angrily say she's rude...

mom..what you want them to do?

even my dad also standing at my side...

finally she keep quiet...

when she asked all of us to sleep,

we moved on quickly

i take the oportunity to call him...

after finish talking, 'drama' started again...

this time, is my sister...

my mom can't find the charger for the nintendo ds...

she asked my sis where she placed it...

after being scold since the morning, my sis quickly find the charger...

my mom started to be angry....so, my sis faster asked for my help to look for the charger...

i helped of course...and finally my sis found it...

it's at the original place but my mom didn't take the effort to look for it...

my sis scare and cried when my mom scolded her for not remembering where she placed it

my sis of course feels hurt and she just walked back in the room with a sour face

my mom feels unsatisfied go into my room and scolded her...

i was actually in my parents room quickly ran to my room...

argue a little with my mom and my mom walked back to the room...

sigh~one day only...

everything turned upside down....

T.T

Special Post

Special Post


This post is specially updated due to a request from a person
KIKI~

well...
the main thing he wants me to do was...
wishing his percious gal, San,
all the best in your spm

(*well, she wouldnt know i write it here though)


since she wouldn't know...i dun mind helping him to say something he didnt ask me to

well, san~
i know i'm an outsider..
i just knew KIKI for a few days
but, during this period, he keep mentioning bout you...
he really very love you
he wish you are back with him
i don't know what happen between you two, but...
i can see that he really regret...
he keep asking me bout spm stuff cause he wants to help you at the same time
i know i'm abit sampat...care other people stuff
but, i also have the one i love...
after got hurt so long, i found a guy who i really would want him to stay with me for the rest of my life
i already tell myself that if i love him, i will trust him no matter what
if he hurt me, i won't blame on him
cause when you love, it's not only his fault...
our ownself also got fault
i just wanted to leave you this message
and, none of it, except wishing you all the best in your spm, are from KIKI...
he don't know i write all this....
anyway...
if can, i wish you can discuss this matter with him again...
he really very miss you
very love you...
give him a chance to treat you better....


sincerely,
from an outsider, elaine

SPM!!!!

SPM!!!!!!!



grrr....
SPM getting nearer now..
but, i still didn't do much study yet...
i keep chatting and online....
ELAINE KUM!!!
WAT R U DOING????
GRRRRR~



yest~

ponteng tuition...
thought of being a good girl so teman my dad go dapao nasi lemak
we knew it's going to rain so we fast fast go buy
ended up really rain
summore is heavy rain
all of us got panic awhile then guess what~
i got wet...from head to toe...
inside also wet..
i was like OMG!!WTF??
but lucky it's super noisy...my dad didn't hear anything..hahaha
we managed to get home with the food not getting wet
but, i sacrifice myself...T.T
quickly take bath and came out shivering





today~
babysitting again...
this time, i made a dancing class...
teach my 'daughter' dancing..
found out my body really weak jor
awhile only already panting...tired
i guess i got to work out even more now
if not i really will die faster
haha

Distracted

Distracted



ever imagine how fragile love was?
most of you guys might say love are a strong connection...i said that too
but, what is love actually means?
how is it like?
why must love begins with some sweet thought then later slowly hurts...
why must everyone suffer for the sake of love?
why can't love be something nice, something smooth, something that are memorable?
why can't it be a two people business instead of three, four and more?



i got distracted when reading his confession...
he told me that he wants it to be a memory for both of them...
i don't blame him or complain much...
but, i feel like a failure after reading it...
i wish i was her instead...
cause, if i'm her, i would definitely appreciate his presence there...



if i was her, i won't want him to suffer..
i don't think i'm that super brave, a person who can take the fact easily anymore...
he msg me, but...i wanted to cool myself down first before talking to him
i need to control my emotions...i don't want him to know my heart is breaking
i don't want him to know i cried



i can't find a place to express myself
my sis is definitely not a good spot for me to do it
friends? i don't think i want them to know the whole story yet
i know many will be reading this
but at least nobody would question me
this might be my best place to express myself, to be the emo me...



typing typing typing...
i know i'm annoying...
but, doing this, i am able to calm myself
and, it's true...
i'm more relax now...
hmmm....i need to face him...
and,tell him i'm alright...
this is the only thing i can do to stop him from worry bout me

my 85th post

85th Post

well...i didn't study much this holiday

woke up early in the morning,

went for morning walk with my mom,

return home, have my bath

help my mom babysitting my "daughter",

online,

watch movie

and lastly, study...

doing the same thing for three days already...

met a new guy named kiki...

at first i thought is a form 4 guy coz i cant c his face clearly...

(*i 4get his name...xD)

but, later found out is two diff ppl...hahaha

chat with him and found out many sad thing bout him and his ex

his story reminds me of his condition now...

started to blame myself again...

...

back to kiki~

he told me he cried alot...

i don't know what to do except calling him not to cry, be happy, and open his mind

anyway...

KIKI~GAMBATE!!!

So-Called Daughter

So-Called Daughter

recently, a little girl joined in my family
and, she look like me when i was young...
super cute!!!
and, the best part is....she stick to me and don't want my mom
my mom say she recognised wrong mother but i say no
i say she recognised wrong nanny liao

when she laugh, you can hardly see her eyes

something bout her makes me attracted to her...

love her la...

how i wish she's my daughter...XD

Sentosa Get Together Charity Concert

Sentosa Get Together Charity Concert

went to the charity concert with chelle

well...i enjoyed the front part of the show cause...

it's all dancing...XD

grr...almost 70% that came to the concert are couples...

lucky me and chelle wear the about-the-same couple shirt...

so we considered as a pair too...muahahaha

met up with bran...

before the concert end, three of us were wandering outside the hall

take group pic together...

and...good news...

those barbarians didn't come and only eu gene came

take picture with him...

at least it's a good dream...

should i thanks eddie??

XD

tats all~

update soon

My Teddies

My Teddies

guess what's in it~

TadAA

part 1~

My small family

Part of my little family

my teddies~

My Photography

My Photography

Empty Without You

Feel So Empty Without You

sigh~i feel so empty now
keep wondering what are you doing while looking at your profile
grrr~i wanted to call you but, stupid phone running out of credit
sigh...i guess i gotta blame myself for not allowing you to reload
well, i wanted you to pay back that 'gal' the money so that you won't have any more relation with her
how i wish i could help you, or at least stay beside you when you need me...
but, i just can't

wondering what are you doing now...
wishing i could just let you know how much i miss you,
how my heart hurt without you

Sentosa Charity Concert

Sentosa Charity Concert

Pictures only

New Clothes

New Clothes

bought new clothes from maine~

tomato boy

(*same with chelle)

me in my onion shirt

smile!!!

GRRR~

Grrr~

outing with those barbarians..

got so random

Yesterday
fell sick yesterday...
again, i refused to see doctor...haha
ate medicine and straight sleep till 4.30
drag myself to tuition and by the time i got back home, i slightly recovered....
woke up early today and find myself fully energetic...can crap around..LOLZ





class got scolded badly during maths
well, actually, it's nothing special...
we just can't shut our mouth...X.x
i regret for not feeling well...i cant join in the so-called holiday celebration...
pulling hair ceremony was held among those 'healthy' person...
i thought i might save myself from it but thanks to maine,
she pulled my hair down..grrrr~~~~





english teacher was like in the centre of confusion...
well, what can she do when she's in the middle of hyperactive 5A9-rians?
walked back with chelle and talk to mrs.m at the same time..
i forgotten what did we talked about but, i remember wishing her happy holidays






Today

suddenly so hard working...
woke up early in the morning...
(*well, not exactly woke up by myself...someone called me and i ended up talking on the phone...)
haha...
i got forced to join my mom for a morning walk which i found fun...
i saw people bringing their dogs out for a walk too
aww...the dogs really looks cute...haha


well, i wish i got more money now...
with the money i got,i can help several people to pay their debt...
but...honestly, maine, sorry ya...haven't pay your money back..i'll pay a.s.a.p
hmm...if only i owned a bank~(*daydreaming...XD)



talk to my mom about future...again
and both of us finally share the same idea...
i'm actually wishing to open a kindergarten
but, i thought it's a mission impossible until mr. puven suggest the same thing to me...
COOL~
told my mom and she told me that she also thought about the same thing yesterday...





going to the charity concert with chelle tonight..
and guess wat??
the almost whole gang af idiots barbarian going too...T.T
i remember anthony telling me~"我们在那边等你啊" and the others giving me evil grin
grrr.....i can't have peace tonight...


T.T





wish me luck for tonight~

UPDATE SOON~

Another Not-So-Ordinary Day

Another Not-So-Ordinary Day

guess what,
during wednesday, 20 people came to school...cool right?
well, actually there are more than 20, but they all went to KDU for the scholarship thing...
i wanted to skip school, but for michelle, i decided to sacrifice my sleep for her...(*don't cry michelle~)
guess what i did...i message her a day before telling her i'm not going to school...
the next morning, i saw her sleeping at her place...i slowly crept into the class and after placing my stuff, i gave her a warm hug...XD well, she got shocked actually...haha
didn't do much during wednesday..teacher wasn't teaching and we got to see the exhibition for...i don't know what they called it...
i remember it's something like transforming human spirit...something like that...gone around in circles there..and, it took away our bio period...grrr~
and guess what!!! NO SEJARAH!!!! WOOhoo....no need to see the nangka's face...muahahaa~


Today~
well, finally, 5A9 really looks like 5A9 now...
more than half 5A9-rians attend school today...
during english, we got to do a little presentation or rather a play about interview...woah~bran was like those typical teenagers who interview just for fun...you should have see him acting there...and xue zhuang, i don't know he can actually crap too, although i know he always act innocent...haha...u rocks~ for my chelle, she's super pro...me? me, carmen and hajar become the one interviewing them...cool right...XD
anna's group was funny...they mentioned about interviews for model...chung hoong came first and i think his character was a nervous person...i like it when he answered...sound so retarded and retarded...lolz...next was kenny...he's those rebelious kind of guy...got his pants folded up and act like those 'lala'....cant stop laughing....fish later on join in and he's the sissy guy...his pose was freaking funny...he is like the combination of~fish+aunty+L...haha....
chee hoe's part was the funniest...with special guest~berlin...chee hoe was a retarded guy who's age 17 with 6-year old mind...berlin later crash the play and act as chee hoe's mom...with special request, berlin was asked to be interview and he is super good in acting..haha...future actor...LOL

nothing much~just got a shocked again from him...but, i think nothing happen~

I Hate You

I Hate You

that's the message i got just right after school...
my heart sank when i read it...i started to ask myself what did i do to make him hate me for all of the sudden...

i text him with uncountable messages and call him continuously...i just wanted to know the reason why...i message him through msn and yearbook and still, he didn't reply me...i started to think nonsense...i keep blaming myself for everything...


i don't know what to do...finally, i give up calling him..i cried and blame myself for loving...cause, whenever i love someone, i will ended up hurt...i waited till an hour later and call him again...i desperately need to know the reason...but, he still refuse to answer..finally, he call me back...


i got to know the reason why..and it's not my fault..his friend tell him something bout me and his friend named terrence..(*p.s..not that f4 guy)...according to his friend, i wanted to be terrence gf, but in real life, i already rejected him and i still remember him telling me that i'm going to loose this good chance...i was like~'like i care'
we managed to talk out of it...when he tell me that he actually trust his friend more, i was mad...but i didn't show any sign of it during the conversation...honestly, i wasn't paying attention..i think about his trust towards me..from mad, i turned out to understand why he think so...he knew his friends longer than me and they doesn't want him to fall again..i can't stop him for not trusting me although it hurts me...


after talking for some time, we stop our conversation...later on, he saw a message from his friend telling him that they actually are joking with him bout me...he apologise and promise me not to repeat the same thing again...well, i made him promise me to tell me every single thing to avoid the same thing happen again...


we managed to get back to normal...he drag back my confidence to love...

Heart

You are often loved because of your outgoing and fun personality, and you like to give hugs and flirt, but underneath of it all you are lacking heart. You find it hard to love others through all the walls you've built around your heart from being hurt so much throughout life, but you want to love, you desperately want that fun, romance that you see in others, but you don't know if you can have it in your current circumstances. You want stability, but at the same time you need change. You go from one extreme to another and often feel overwhelmed when you can't figure out something. You think about your life often and how you can improve your character. You find it hard to settle, but you really want to. You just feel like you need to find that balance, that heart that you've been missing for so long. You need to love through the pain, but it's so hard. But the walls need to crumble for you to truly be YOU...

~~~~What i got in Facebook Quiz~~~~

Today

TODAY

S.I.L.L.Y M.E

woke up early in the morning and guess what? met up with my worst enemy, COCKROACH!!!! grrr....spoilt my mood early in the morning!!!


went to school and guess how many people were present to day?haha~not even half!!!! only 17 people turned up to class today...the hardworking homosapiens are~~~~



ME(*of coz~), Chelle, Hajar, Choon Hui, Choy Yi, Bran, Xue Zhuang, Vivian, Kenny, Mervin, Esther, Shyh-Xiang, Cheng Li, Anna, Michelle Yee, Lai Yee, and Cheng Hsiung.


during pj, i sacrifice my lesson to attend the career test given by mr. puven...well, accoording to him, i should persue in mass comm or either law...haha...but, at least the whole counselling was usefull to me...and guess what?i got dual personality...actually, it's quite true...XD



during recess, Choy Yi went back home...she can't stand being without her gang...hahaha


the whole class which consists of 16 homosapiens got to combind class with 5A12 during maths. the whole period was funny with ng sheng yuan crapping around...he should enter a debate or something like that...i bet he sure will win(*if the debate is for people who craps alot...XD)


sleep during english lesson...chelle got stomach infection again...kesian my dear la...T.T i wish i could do something...T.T and, everyone doing their own stuff for the whole day...what can you do?with such a little amount of students turned up, why dont the school closed down...so i don't have to drag myself to school...haha...

TATS ALL

UPDATE SOON